Friday, August 19, 2011

Thank God i found u

So, I have to say there is something peaceful about the hospital at night. The sound of my roomates snoring to lull me to sleep, my IV pump doubling as a night light and the running water sound soothing me from the oxygen mask on the patient next to me. Not to mention the three different containers of urine that are sitting on the bathroom floor which make my stomach turn everytime I go in there and I don't even
Need to tell you what it smells like
It here. It's been very hard over the past few days but it was nice to see Zane and Dad in my room today after I awoke from
My drug induced nap! They have always been so
Supportive of me through everything, even when I phone them twonor three times a day saying I'm plannng on escaping from the hospital. I am grateful for so many things in my life bur lately I feel like my life is one big medical episode and I'm scrambling in between to
Have a life for myself. On Wednesday when I was in emergency the man next to me who was suffering from a bowel obstruction cried out in pain I wish I was never born and I thought to myself I hear ya buddy. It's hard to be in intense pain for several hours it starts to mess with your head. Either way, I was born and all I can do is take it one day at a time!

L

4 comments:

  1. I hope you feel better soon. Those abdominal/psoas bleeds are murder, and the pain does get to levels exactly what you describe, bordering on psychotic episode. I've had more than a few of them, so I know how you're feeling, no fun at all. Stay strong, it will pass soon. One moment at a time.

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  2. Thank you both so much for reading and you encouragement! It really means a lot to me! I'm starting to feel better bit by bit! Thank god

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  3. We all are always here to support you.

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