Thursday, May 23, 2013

Vote for me please!

So, I've entered to win this contest. I could win 5,000$ and I figure with a wedding coming up I could certainly use the funds!

Please vote for me if you get a chance!

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Pain Pain go away

So, I'm not feeling 100% at the moment. I went to bed as normal and now I am up in pain unable to sleep. I don't know what normal people think when they get sick, but for me I think of all the terrible things it could be. Right off the bat I think, it must be a ruptured ovary, gallstone attack, or infection. I never think just a stomach ache. The first thing I do when I get sick is to search for my painkillers, I don't take them right away but I like to know they are there if the pain spikes. The next thing I do is run a hot bath. I make it as hot as I can possible stand. After that I lie on the couch, for some reason when I am sick the last place I want to be is in bed. When I am in bed all I can think about is the pain and I hate twisting and turning in the dark. After a few episodes of Murdoch mysteries I usually try to head back to bed. Perhaps I over analyze things or worry too much but because I've had so many terrible experiences in the past I don't think I will ever be able to think of a stomach ache as just a stomach ache and I don't think I will ever be more than a few feet away from pain killers. Like I said I only take them when I absolutely need them but I find it comforting know they are there.
I sometimes worry about the effects of all the pain medication of taken over the years. I know its terrible for your liver among other things I'm sure. There have been times though that I have been in such pain that I contemplated jumping out a window so I guess there's no easy solution. Nevertheless I am off to try and get some sleep.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Wedding woes

So, there are only 61 days left until the wedding! As if that isn't stressful enough I have been on my period since March 4th. I am starting to feel tired and dizzy when I stand up. I find it impossible to get out of bed in the morning and I haven't been able to go to the gym or go for a walk in a while now I just don't have the energy. My family doctor thinks this could be from stress and I have to say I agree with her. It wasn't my best idea to try and lose 50 pounds while starting a new job and planning a wedding for 200 people in a different province! But alas here we are. The wedding has taken on a life of its own and in the past 6 months three of our parents have been hospitalized, and two have had surgeries. Its been a stressful time to say the least and now I find myself not feeling great and just over all pretty exhausted. The trouble with just being a little bit sick is that you can't call in sick to work for being a little bit tired and you can quit your every day life because you are a little bit sick. There is always work to be done. Right now I am waiting for my blood work to come back. If my levels are low I suspect they will infuse me. If not, I suspect I will start a regimen of iron and possibly iron infusions. Of course I am just speculating. My levels could be just fine and I could simply be tired from writing out seating charts and making tiny homemade flowers out of paper. Either way I am counting down the days until I am dancing at my wedding hopefully happy and healthy with all of our friends and family around us.