So, when I get stressed out I either blog alot, or not at all. And I haven't been able to bring myself to write for a while now. Ive just had so much on my mind. I worry about my mom, I had an ankle bleed and I had a nose bleed on an off for 7 days. Not much fun at all. But I am getting the house ready for Christmas and Christmas always makes me happy and hopeful.
Monday, August 1, 2016
So, Zane and I just got back from 10 days in Newfoundland. It was quite the world wind tour, we went to a stag and doe, stood in a wedding, visited my mom in the hospital, took her home on a two day pass, visited with family and friends and did a bit of shopping.
My heart is always broken when I come back from Newfoundland. I cry all the way to Toronto every time and even have a cry or two a few days before we are set to leave.
This trip was especially hard because I am worried about my momma. She just got out of the hospital after spending three months there for a hip replacement. She worked so hard in physio and has been in a lot of pain over the past three months. It was so nice to see her recovering and return to her home. She is so happy being home with all her memories and her family and friends just minutes away. I do worry about her though being home and dealing with Parkinson's. My mom and I have spent our entire lives together worrying about each other. Me with my Hemophilia and now her with her Parkinson's disease. Just like she couldn't stop or control my bleeding I can't control her Parkinson's and its progression.
All I can do is help her when she asks and pray for her health and happiness.
I do love living in Calgary I love the great health care and our home and dogs and family and friends but I think a little piece of me will always be in Stephenville, Newfoundland.
Friday, June 24, 2016
So, today Ive been listening to Top of the World by Patty Griffin. Its my favorite song in the whole world. Its also a very sad song. I've been feeling really sad lately and tired. Ive had my period for 6 weeks, my moms been in the hospital for 9 weeks and theres been a few other ups and downs for me and my family. I'm getting a bit stressed worrying about everything and ive found myself putting the milk in the cupboard and the olive oil in the fridge and all kinds of silly little things that I do when I am stressed. I wish I could take everyones aches and pains away and I wish I could fix everything but I just can't and Ive realized that worrying about it doesn't help either. Ive been trying to distract myself and keep busy Ive been walking the dogs and going to the gym. On a side note, I wish I was one of those people that lost weight when they got stressed but alas I am not, I am the type that gains weight.
Anyways, Im trying to stress less and trying to just have faith that everything will work out in due time.
In a a way I guess I am lucky that I have all these wonderful friends and family members to worry about. I am blessed that I have so many people that I love and when they hurt I hurt. I hope they know no matter how far away I am or how long its been since ive seen them they are always in my thoughts and prayers.
I don't have a picture of my entire family but here is a picture of me and my Priddle family at our wedding in 2013.
Monday, May 30, 2016
So, today I had my chest X Ray and Doctors appointment with my pulmonary specialist. My X Ray showed that there are no more signs of Sarcoidosis in my lungs and my lymph nodes are no longer swollen. I am so happy to get this news because one of the last things I needed was another weird disease.
I don't need to go back and see my doctor for another year and if I stay healthy hopefully I will never have any lung issues again.
Hemophilia and bleeds is something I am use to but lung problems are terrible I must say. Not being able to take deep breath in and having a tight and sore chest is such a terrible feeling.
I think staying happy and stress free is an important part of staying healthy and one thing I find that is good for relieveing stress is cooking.
Today I made a giant pot of soup. I like making soup because you can jut throw everything in a pot and it creates this delicious mix! Its also big and good for sharing incase you are lucky enough to have family or friends visit.