Tuesday, January 3, 2023
Ah Christmas, a time to rest and relax and rejuvenate yourself for the hard winter ahead. This year my body decided to just break all the way down and I found myself being sick in one way or another from December 23rd to today, January 3rd.
It all started with a urinary tract infection a few days before I was finished work. This infection progressed into a kidney infection and I found myself throwing up in a friends bathroom after a dinner party.
I had one day on December 27th where the infection was gone. However, the next day I had a hip bleed and went into emergency for a blood transfusion.
The icing on top of course was the sadness I felt about not having my mom around for Christmas.
I am now back to work, tired, sad and bitter that Christmas break went so awry. However, there is not one damn thing I can do about it so Im just trying to grin and bear it.
This poem really summed up how I have been feeling.
Thursday, June 16, 2022
So, its been 5 weeks without my Mom. Its still so hard to adjust to. When I make soup, I think oh I have to get a container now and bring some down to her. When I drive by her street I always think to pull in and have a visit. Things may never go back to normal but I am finding myself more grateful lately. Grateful for the time I did have with her, grateful for all the lessons she taught me and grateful for all of our friends and family who helped us through a terrible time.
I had an iron infusion last week as my iron was down to single digits and Monday I had an ultrasound. It was the first medical things I ever had completed without my mom by my side or at least the ability to call and complain to her afterwards.
I am trying to focus on the future. I've been planning things for myself to look forward to while still trying to give myself space to grieve.
Tuesday, March 15, 2022
So, it's the 25th Anniversary of the Bay St. George Sick Children's Foundation. This wonderful organization provides financial support to families who have to travel out of the area for medical care. This foundation was formed 25 years ago after a group of volunteers organized a fundraiser for me.
The fundraiser was held on March 10th, 1997 at the Stephenville High School gym. They raised $4,100.
I wasn't able to attend the event as I was still in the hospital but someone recorded it for me. I was overwhelmed then and I am now, 25 years later still blown away with the kindness and generosity of people in this area.
When I finally returned home from the Janeway people dropped off food and gifts and cards and some people told me how much they prayed for me.
I will never forget the love my family and I received from this beautiful little town.
If you can please donate to the Bay St. George Sick Children's Foundation.