Lurley Vondell Scott

So, I was gonna log in and tell you about how I had a hip bleed in December, January, February and March and how Im going for a CT scan on Tuesday. But quietly and peacefully my sweet grandmother, Lurley passed away on March 15th, 2023. 
She was 95 years old and I saw her just a few weeks ago when Zane and I went to Corner Brook for a little visit. 
I am so sad that she is gone. She was such a gentle soul. A very bright light in the world. I first met Mrs. Johnson ( she was a school teacher so we all called her Mrs. Johnson) I was only in grade 4. She treated like gold right from day one. Her and Stan had the cutest little house on York avenue and every special occasion we would all go over and have dinner together. She made the most delicious food and desserts. Some of my fondest memories are going over for Christmas dinner and then falling asleep on the couch to the sound of her, stan, charlie and mom chatting. They are all gone now and it feels kind of apocalyptic. Its weird being one of the last ones left. I feel so sad and my garage is collecting more and more boxes of things that I just can't bear to part with from them. I took a few days off last week to plan the funeral. I tried to use readings and hymns that I thought she would like. I have a few photos of her to display at the service and I tried to write her a nice obituary. Feels like such a small thing to do for a woman who has had such a huge impact on my life. Its a big task to try and honor the dead. Over the past few years it feels like a full time job with all the loss we have experienced. I will remember the good times and try to pass the kindness on to the next generation. 

and its Christmas all over again

Ah Christmas, a time to rest and relax and rejuvenate yourself for the hard winter ahead. This year my body decided to just break all the way down and I found myself being sick in one way or another from December 23rd to today, January 3rd. 

It all started with a urinary tract infection a few days before I was finished work. This infection progressed into a kidney infection and I found myself throwing up in a friends bathroom after a dinner party.

I had one day on December 27th where the infection was gone. However, the next day I had a hip bleed and went into emergency for a blood transfusion.

The icing on top of course was the sadness I felt about not having my mom around for Christmas. 

I am now back to work, tired, sad and bitter that Christmas break went so awry. However, there is not one damn thing I can do about it so Im just trying to grin and bear it. 

This poem really summed up how I have been feeling. 

The Music Crept By Us
from Flowers For Hitler by Leonard Cohen

I would like to remind
the management
that the drinks are watered
and the hat-check girl
has syphilis
and the band is composed
of former SS monsters
However since it is
New Year’s Eve
and I have lip cancer
I will place my
paper hat on my
concussion and dance