Scared

So, Friday when I went to the hospital for my daily treatment my doctor said that he wasn't happy with how long it was taking me to get better!
He decided to do a follow up Ultrasound and a surgical consult. The ultrasound went fine and then a surgical resident came to talk to me.
The said they would rather do the surgery now when when everything is planned and somewhat normal rather than wait until my gallstones bother me again and everything is inflamed and infected.
The whole time she is talking I'm thinking, there's no way you are operating on me!
You see I have several things that require surgery, 5 impacted wisdom teeth, ovarian cysts and now these gallstones.
I've always been told that surgery it too risky so to have someone sit down and discuss how my surgery would go was scary.
In the end we decided that if I have no further pain I'm good to go. If the pain comes back or gets worse they want to operate on Tuesday!
In my world that is an absolute nightmare I have a fear of being put under and a fear of getting cut open and parts of my body being removed.
Anyways, through some research I found lots of information on the Internet that says a low fat diet can keep you from having a gallstone attack.
Awesome, so Zane goes to the grocery store and buys me every fruit and vegetable they had in Safeway!
So far the diet has been going pretty well.
I did spend one day feeling sorry for myself. I mean its hard to one week eat whatever you and then the next week you have to cut out everything you enjoy eating.
I tried feeling bad for myself and cried and stuff like that but it just upsets everyone around me, my Mom, my Dad and Zane. They are already stressed out enough so I sucked it up.
Today was a much better day. I met with a natural path practitioner and she was great. An angel really.
She gave me great ideas and recipes that I can follow. She also has some ideas for getting rid of the gallstones completely my eating certain foods.
For example, she said beets are great for gallstones so I've already eaten 3 beets today which is more than I've ever eaten in my whole life. They actually aren't that bad besides the fact that they make everything red my pots and pans and my teeth and hands. Oh well I feel like that is the least of my worries at this point.
I must say though I do feel I lost something. I know its only food but its strange to think that I will never eat ice cream cake again, or enjoy a nice cup of coffee with lots of cream and sugar.
I know those things were just killing me slowly but they felt good going down.
I do feel like this new way of eating will save my life or at least make it more enjoyable!

Stones

So, I went to work Monday with a little pain in my side. As the day went on it go worse and worse. I never had a pain like it before so its hard to describe but it hurt to move hurt to breathe in and I was really nauseated.
By the time Zane got home from work I had my mind made up to go to the emergency room.
Which should tell you how much pain I was in because I never go to the emergency unless I absolutely have to!
When i go to the emergency room I play the Hemophilia card. I call the switchboard and have them page the hemotologist on call. When I see the triage nurse I talk about how I could be bleeding internally and I always say I feel about 10 times worse than i actually do. If i don't do this I could be in the waiting room for 12 hours and I can't take that chance because it is quite possible I could be bleeding internally.
Anyways, after a few hours we see the doctor, they give me a steroid to relax my muscles, morphine and an anti nauseant. A few hours later I am released. They assume it's gallstones. I was diagnosed with gallstones with I was 12 years old because of a mineral build up from all the blood transfusions.
The next morning Zane and I go for my ultrasound, they find that my gallbladder is swollen and infected. Awesome.
The doctors decide to give me four units of fresh frozen plasma. Also they decide to give me all kinds of drugs.
Anyways this protocol continues Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, today and I have to fo back Friday and Saturday.
This is ridiculous right? I'm exhausted, nauseated, hungry and sick.
Today during my daily hospital visit, my nurse gave me the suggested diet for people with gallstones.
It's brutal! no coffee, no booze, no dairy the list of foods to aviod goes on and on!
It may not seem like a big deal, but I just feel like the more i go along with the disease the less and less I can do.
The nurse said today, yeah its all fun and games until you get get an attack.
And i'm thinking yea, because my life has really been fun and games up until this point!
Seriously, I just feel like what else is going to get taken away from me? But as I've learned me feeling sorry for myself doesn't get me anywhere either.
I'll just have to suck it up and eat my organic fruits and berries and shut up!