One Month Today

So, it has been one month today since my step father Charlie has died. I don't know why exactly but today has been a hard day for me. I thought once I got back to Calgary it would be easier ut of sight, out of mind kind of thing but I feel just as upset as I did in Newfoundland. I think what triggered me today was the fact that I began looking at wedding songs and it got me to thinking about how Charlie will not be dancing with me at my wedding. I guess I am also stressed because I have been putting my health on the back burner this summer and I am worrying about that. Coming up I have a doctors appointment with my hematologist, gynecologist, family doctor and dentist. I should be focusing on that but all I can think about is Charlie. I guess time heals all wounds and I can't wait for that day to come!