Tired

So, I've been feeling overwhelmed lately. Zane's appointment at the knee clinic didn't go as well as I had hoped. The plan is they will do an MRI in a week or two and then from there they will decide if it's a ACL strain or complete tear that will help them determine how long he will need to recover. The doctors best estimate right now is 6-8 weeks so of course I had to cancel Zane's trip to Vegas. I'm very disappointed and heart broken for Zane. It's hard to seem him in so much pain. In the meantime I am on my third day of working 12 days in a row and on Saturday I have the girls sleepover. Don't get me wrong I am really looking forward to the Girls Sleepover. I have been planning it for months and I am really looking forward to meeting the girls but planning this has been a lot of work, booking the zoo, contacting all the companies for funding, calling every family and inviting them by phone, buying all the supplies and it's stressful because if things don't go well it's all on me but at the end of the day I hope people remember that I am just a volunteer. Sometimes I think maybe I am spreading myself too thin and sometimes I feel like I'm not being effective. I could stop volunteering in Hemophilia which would make time for other things but I can't help but think about the fact that I may not always have a job but I will always have Hemophilia and while I am well enough I have to do as much as I can and even if its just writing silly blog posts here and there or responding to e mails I have to think it's doing some good.