Christmas Past

So, with Christmas coming up I've been counting down the days until I leave for Newfoundland! Only 26 days! I've got all of my Christmas cards filled out and I've decided to get Zane a Kindle Wireless Reading Device, Wi-Fi, 6" Display, Graphite - Latest Generation. This will be our first trip to Newfoundland at Christmas time in four years. The last Christmas we went home we got as far as the Edmonton airport and I felt like I was getting a urinary tract infection. I remember calling home and Charlie answered. I cried and cried and he said it's ok darling, it will be ok. The pain was excruciating and by the time I got to Deer Lake, NL I was besides myself in pain. Mom took me to the hospital and after taking a few antibiotics I started to feel better. A few days later an cyst on my ovary ruptured and began to bleed into my abdomen. Again I was in so much pain and the doctors would not give me any blood or pain medication. I was taken by ambulance to Corner Brook where they talked about doing surgery and all sorts of foolishness. Anyways to make a long story short, I was released from the hospital on Christmas eve and was told to take it easy. I remember Christmas morning sitting in a pile of wrapping paper and gifts thinking, this is the worst Christmas ever, I was exhausted, dehydrated and on top of it I had the worst flu I ever had in my life. But, at least we all together, our family dog Jessie was sniffing around all the gifts and Charlie was sitting in his big arm chair smiling. I never thought I would say this but I would give anything to have that Christmas back again. This year I am hoping to be healthy but I will never have Jessie and Charlie back again. I love Christmas and I am really looking forward to it but I know it's going to be a tough one!